It’s nice when things make sense. It puts our minds at ease and we feel good. But there are a lot of things in life that don’t make sense. I didn’t understand why I was raped, or why I had to struggle with depression, why I got our finances in a mess, or why I made the majority of mistakes that I have. If I desired an explanation that made sense for these things, well the explanation would be that I am one really messed up person. Which is true…in a way. I have made and will continue to make a great deal of mistakes, but Jesus loves me and will continue to love me to wholeness. I am a daughter of the King perfected in Him.
But compare a perfected princess with the wreckage I have left behind and well…there we are again…in our minds it just doesn’t make sense…
We can be quick to dismiss our identity as loved by God, as a daughter of the King, as His bride – because, well really, it doesn’t make much sense. It causes all sorts of cognitive dissonance in our brains, and we are left uncertain of what we should and can actually choose to believe.
Our nature is to take circumstances and fit them into our mold. But many of us have a pretty tainted mold. A mold that may have been formed in childhood. Maybe our parents abandoned us, or someone hurt us really bad, and our mold says we are unworthy. Psalm 139:14, “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” – well it doesn’t fit the unworthy mold…
Maybe our mold says we are unloveable. That we are only objects used for sex, or that we have to earn our love, or obtain perfection to be loved. John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” That doesn’t fit our mold…
And so we continue to struggle with believing His truth. Trying to fit His vast, deep, wide, unfathomable awesomeness into the tainted mold we formed somewhere along the way…never understanding why it doesn’t fit.
Well, I’m here to tell you sweet sister, that it may be time to break the mold. And you must ask yourself if you really want it to break?
Because many times molds are comfortable for us. And sometimes the true unconditionality of His love will push your emotions beyond your comfort level. Love can be difficult to accept, especially if you have never known such love before. But He wants us to know Him in the fullness of His love. He wants to be our everything. He desires that we might know His love even so that we may share with others…so maybe the person down the line will see Him too.
What would happen if you chose to beleive His love is bigger than your mold? That the proclamations of His Word are truth. That His truth speaks louder than the negative things you say about yourself…or the things others have and will say…
He is the One who breaks the mold…
“Because many times molds are comfortable for us. And sometimes the true unconditionality of His love will push your emotions beyond your comfort level. Love can be difficult to accept, especially if you have never known such love before. But He wants us to know Him in the fullness of His love. He wants to be our everything. He desires that we might know His love even so that we may share with others…so maybe the person down the line will see Him too.”
So true! That mold, no matter how unnatural it seemed to others, was quite comfortable to me. Taking that first step and allowing Him to love me has been the most difficult, yet rewarding things i’ve ever done! Kari Jobe helped me quite often get through these last 9 months. Thanks Stephanie!
Stephanie ~
I needed to hear your words today and your heart. Thank you sweet sister in Christ for the reminder that I am his daughter and I am loved. It is time to break the mold and move forward away frim the heart ache. I am wearing my invisible crown and knowing I AM LOVED and I am not alone.
Thank you & Blessings….xoxo
Oh Lauren, may The Lord continue to breath fresh life into you sweet sister. You have such a gift.
Amen! from one really messed up person, loved & claimed by the King to another!