If you are visiting from Proverbs 31′s Encouragement for Today let me say welcome! I am so glad you are here! I would love to share a bit more with you about my journey towards healing…
Have you ever had one of those dreams that you have over and over again? I have one where I’m pressing my foot on the car break as I hard as I can, but I can’t stop! Inevitably, I ram the cars in front of me and awaken with a jump!
Have you ever had an experience like that in life? There’s something you desperately want to stop doing but no matter how hard you try, you can’t stop? I have. A few years ago when I went through a period of depression, I wanted to make it stop.
Well meaning people would tell me that I could stop depression if I wanted to. That I could choose to feel better, and I wanted to choose these things. But no matter how hard I pressed on the brakes of sadness and tried to numb out my feelings, they wouldn’t stop.
So what do we do when the brakes aren’t working? When feelings like overwhelming sadness or anxiety hijack the brakes and we find ourselves destined for a crash?
We jump out of the car.
The devotion I shared today dealt with forgiving when an apology never comes. I jumped out of the car when I chose to forgive the person who hurt me, and forgive myself, even though my feelings screeched in the background. My feelings told me that life was unfair and that I was justified in my anger. My feelings squashed me with shame, telling me that I was and would continue to be a failure. My feelings were traveling 90 to nothing in the direction of destruction.
The only option for me was to acknowledge that these feelings existed and were real, but also to acknowledge where they were taking me. The feelings were unproductive and taking me in a direction I never intended to go. So I got out of the car.
I’m not saying I simply chose for my depression to leave. But I did choose to forgive, to seek medical care for the biological base behind my depression, to seek counseling for the emotional issues, to engage myself in activity and exercise, and to seek the Lord with all my heart. All of these choices made by the strength of The Lord helped me find a new car. One with brakes that worked, and one headed in the direction if life and healing.
Dear sister, if you are tired of feeling the same old way, the same old hurts, and dealing with the same old pain, maybe it’s time to get out of the car and head in a new direction. It’s not easy, but in Him all things are possible. It’s not about choosing away our feelings, rather choosing to take steps to heal so that He can restore our lives and emotions.