It wasn’t just me. Or you. Or Him. When Christ was nailed to the cross we were all nailed there with Him. Our heart could not handle the weight of depravity, so His did.
And as I sit here reading about the thousands of babies aborted, sweet life sold for parts and profit, it breaks me. And then I think of the moms. The ones who made the choice for countless reasons. Believing with their whole heart they were doing the right thing. And then those that were deeply questioning but made the choice anyways. And even some who were forced into the decision. And then my heart breaks deeper.
And it breaks Him too. It breaks Him over and over again too.
And if that is you, it’s important that you know you are not alone. That Christ died for you. And that when He died, He meant it. He drug your darkest day up on the cross with Him and it rose from the grave the same as He did. The redemption He has given you is not partial – but in fullness.
There is no grave too deep or shallow. No decision made too many times or with too much certainty that is beyond the power of redemption. Even if you fell hard on the side that life was not life and now you look at things differently – it’s not too late. The choice cannot be undone, but the shame can be released. You do not have to suffer or live in darkness. You are set free. Redemption is full.
The night before Jesus was crucified, He went to the garden to pray. He prayed so fervently that He sweat blood. He knew the weight of suffering and was bent over in agonous desperation. All the while, the disciples fell asleep.
They fell asleep. He asked them to pray that they would not fall into temptation, but flesh won that night and they drifted off. And still, Jesus loved them. Their depravity did not change His decision.
And our flesh is no different. At times He asks us to do something, and we fail miserably. We fall into temptation when He warns us not to. We deny Him as we sin, over and over again. Yet it did not, does not, and will not change His thoughts, love, mind, or actions. Redemption remains.
You heart may not be able to handle the weight of depravity, and that is okay. He knows. So He handled it for you. Galatians 5:1 says, “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.”
He didn’t set you free so that you could live in the darkness of bondage, hidden from grace. He set you free so that you could walk in the light. So that you could share your story with others, and they might find freedom too. None of us are too broken, too bad, too dirty, or unloveable. He loves us all the same. He loved you as much before the abortion, or whatever you are struggling with, as He loves you after. You are His beautiful daughter and that will never change. You can look back all you want, but He looks forward, and in Him your value will never change.