The Life-Light was the real thing: Every person entering Life he brings into Light. He was in the world, the world was there through him, and yet the world didn’t even notice. He came to his own people, but they didn’t want him. But whoever did want him, who believed he was who he claimed and would do what he said, He made to be their true selves, their child-of-God selves. These are the God-begotten, not blood-begotten, not flesh-begotten, not sex-begotten. (John 1:9-13 MSG)
Not blood begotten. Not flesh begotten. Not sex begotten. But God-begotten. I love how Eugene Peterson translates this passage.
There are days when I feel anything but God-begotten. There are also times when I wonder if my children might be alien begotten or begotten in the wild animal kingdom and somehow transplanted into my life. They can burp loud enough to rattle the walls and suddenly don deaf ears when I ask them to do something, but regardless of their behavior, I know they are begotten of Kevin and myself, and I love them dearly.
Maybe that’s why I love John 1:9-13. Even when I imagine God saying, “seriously, that cannot be my child”, I know all He really cares about is that I choose Him. That I had at least one moment of God given lucid awareness where I said, “yep Jesus, I choose you to be my King, my answer, my grace, and I want to follow you.”
And because I want Him. He makes me into my true self. The self He designed me to be. Not the fleshy mess you see in front of you, rather a self completely cleansed and perfected by the blood of Jesus. My “child of God” self. He has made me more than I can be on my own and less I of a mess than I actually am. He sees me. All of me. Yet the lens is shifted by the reflection of the cross so that all is made new. Brokenness is now blessing, love casts out fear, and I am God-begotten. Born again out of the flesh and into new life.
So what does this mean? I don’t have to walk in shame and neither do you. If you want Him – If you choose Him – You are made over by the power of His blood and no longer your self but your child-of-God self. Moved out of the dark and into the light. Isn’t that glorious!?!?