I am enough for you today.
I remember scrawling these words in my Bible. It’s funny how such a simple phrase could mean so much. And perhaps it will never mean as much again as it did that day. But that day, in that hour, I actually felt Him as my savior.
I was drowning in a sea of self-doubt and uncertainty. I felt alone and afraid. Abandoned and broken.
You would think processing through a traumatic event that happened years prior would be simple. But it wasn’t. Processing through it made it real again. As real as the moment it happened. Real enough to shake the foundation of my heart and sanity. Real enough to send me into a quickly spiraling anxiety toilet. Around and around I went until I finally reached the bottom of the bowl. In one last ditch effort I reached out my hand. I wasn’t sure there would be anything to grab onto. But He was there.
I am enough for you Stephanie. Enough to carry you through this moment. This hour. This day. Do you trust me enough to continue life balanced in my hand? Will you trust me to keep you safe?
And He has. He has been, and continues to be, more than enough.
Looking back as a counselor myself, I understand what my mind and body were going through. When we process through these pushed down, repressed, often very painful memories, our minds, emotions, and bodies relive the trauma.
But the beauty of working through your pain with a counselor by your side is this time…this chance…you have an opportunity to make it new. To process what happened not with fear and shame, but with hope and belief that God will bring good from this. You have a chance to rewrite your story.
I’m writing this post as part of a “blog hop” for the P31 Online Bible Study of Tracie Miles book “Stressed Less Living”. We are supposed to write about a time that we felt God close enough to touch. This moment when God rescued me with His soothing words was one of the closest times I’ve ever had with Him. And yet it was one of the most difficult times of my life.
I want to encourage you that if you are facing a giant in your past, something you are afraid to admit, process, or think about – God is here. It may be difficult to go back to upsetting places.
It will be difficult.
But God is here.
He will meet you there. And right there, in the middle of all the uncharted territory, is where He will help you rewrite your story.
Trauma becomes victory. Shame is undone. Letting go is possible. And moving forward is victory.
Today I encourage you to begin finding that victory in Him. Even if that means seeking Christian counseling…the time has come for you to be set free from your circumstances.