For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,”made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ. 2 Corinthians 4:6
There can be a great deal of wreckage that comes to light when the past is brought into reality. For this very reason, I spent years in fear hiding behind the mask of performance and seeking perfection. Eventually my fears and shame began to ooze out onto paper, and I am still thanking the Lord that it did. Writing has been an avenue for me to walk with Christ on the road to freedom.
Writing or drawing is a great way to start the process of revealing our past. We write our stories or draw them long before we are able to speak about them. Paper may seem safer than verbal reasoning. However we begin the process of coping with our past, it is often the first step in moving towards God’s plan to revive our present.
When we write about the hidden things, we allow our minds space to be honest and approach the darkened corners. Places that contain those deeply embedded internal messages are allowed to surface.
When I started dealing with my past, I remember writing strings of inappropriate language. They made no sense and weren’t directed at anyone specific. The anger and internal rage buried deep inside my heart began to bubble out. It felt good to write these things, but it also scared me. I felt wrong for having such hurtful and negative images burned into my mind. However, if I hadn’t begun the process of getting them out with paper and pen – I would have continued to spew rage towards inappropriate targets.
We often hide our past because we are afraid revealing it will only make things worse. However, the wreckage compounds when our past is hidden. When the truth is revealed the internal storm starts to dissipate. There may still be quite a mess to clean up, but at least the tornado stops swirling.
If you are fearful of approaching pain from your past I would encourage you to try free writing or drawing. Just write or draw whatever comes to mind. It doesn’t have to make sense. You will be surprised how much this activity reveals about your internal state of mind and how much of a relief it can be just to get these things out of the body and onto paper.