Guard your ears if you’re sensitive because I’m fixing to say something that could offend. Here goes….
Sometimes I just want to tell God he can stick it where the sun don’t shine. Not trying to hurt anyone’s feelings or my reputation, just saying it how it is. Because I wonder if you have ever felt that way too? If God has ever shown you His plans, or what seems like lack there of, and you just want to say seriously????
It doesn’t matter why you feel this way, you could analyze it or pay someone to analyze it, but sometimes you just do. And I’m going to tell you, in my book, that’s ok. Why? Because we have feelings. And as long as we don’t allow these feelings to desecrate our relationship with The Lord, we can keep it real.
And so I suppose it’s not by chance that in a fit of frustration my Bible fell open to the book of Jeremiah. Because he also balked about the mission The Lord was calling him to….
The word of the Lord came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
“Alas, Sovereign Lord,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.”
But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am too young.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.
I do not know how to speak. I am too young. Yep, I get what your calling me to, but you got the wrong dude. That can’t possibly be what you created me to do?
Yes I identify with Jeremiah. However, my excuses are bathed in pride. They sound more like, God I’m not getting any younger, you gave me this thing to do, and I will do it…but is that all? This is not what I had envisioned. Really?
And yet I know the Lords response is the same to me…Who are you to tell me what I should and should not call you to do? You MUST go!
And here lies the decision point. Will we stay or will we go? Will we allow our feelings, which can be awfully strong, to dictate our reverence and respect for The Lord and His sovereignty? Or will we trust Him beyond the capacity of our feelings, and walk in the direction we do not understand – setting excuses, egos, and all other flesh driven obstacles aside?
We must choose to trust God. He has proven Himself worthy and sovereign in the past, and will continue to in the future.
Maybe I need to tell my flesh to stick it where the sun don’t shine and adorn a bit more of Jesus and a bit less if my own selfish ambitions. Yes Lord, I hear you…thanks for giving me Your glorious wisdom, yet once again.