Why I’m tired of pointing the finger at others in ministry…

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:14-17

I read a lot of social media. We land blast one preacher for misinterpreting the Gospel. We praise others for their seemingly humble approach. We pick and choose what we like and don’t like about this or that and exploit it to the max.

Because of things I read, I have ebbed and flowed in my desires to write, blog, or really do anything related to ministry. I have wondered, tested, and questioned my motives. Do I write for His glory or mine? Are my intentions pure? Should I lock my thoughts up in a journal and be content? Or is it okay to get excited when stephanieclayton.org is at the top of the google search list?

I swing back and forth. I love well known speakers and writers. I get excited about God when I hear their messages. Then I see them blasted for having “selfish” intentions, and my heart grows weary.

But what I’m learning is that life isn’t simple. Humans are messy. Ministry gets messy. We make mistakes. We are humble at times, and other times our sin-nature gets the best of us. Sometimes we interpret scripture correctly. Other times we might mess it up. And that’s scary. But is it scary enough for us to keep our relationship with God locked up in our bedrooms? I certainly hope not.

I’ve backed away from ministry for a season, some out of calling, and some out of fear. What I am realizing is not to put other people in a box, and not to be bothered when they put me in a box. Because if I dare to share the Gospel, I am also going to make mistakes. Even public mistakes. And that is okay. It’s okay for me. And it’s okay for others. Because we are all just fallen sinners, living in a fallen world, doing the very best we can to share the one thing that sets us free…Jesus Christ.

So are my motives spotless? Probably not. But I will do my best to stay in the center of His will. Will I ever misinterpret scripture? I’ll try not to, but I’m human, and it could happen.

But one thing I choose not to do a second longer is stay paralyzed by mere humanity. Why? Because God knows I’m human. He knows I mess up. And He lets me share His truth anyways. And even if one person, just one time, sees His unobstructed light shining in me, even if for a second…it’s worth it. To spread the love of Jesus to one hurting soul, it’s worth it.

And maybe you are feeling the same way. Maybe you held back the dreams God placed on your heart out of a misinterpreted view on humility. That it’s mandatory to be small and hidden.

Yes it’s essential to have a personal relationship with God that is intimate and quiet…but there is nothing wrong with sharing in other ways He has called you to share. You don’t put a lamp under a bowl! You let the light shine!

There’s nothing wrong with sharing from a gigantic stadium platform. And there’s nothing wrong with leading a backyard small group. It doesn’t matter as long as you are sharing what He has called you to share in the manner He has called you to share it.

So I challenge you, maybe let’s stop mentally or socially pointing the finger and instead be thankful our sin prone bodies can be a little bit more when we let them be the hands and feet of Jesus.



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